Eulogy for the Greatest Man of My Life!

11 November 2014 Hi Pa, This is so difficult! I know I have tried to prepare myself for this scenario but this is just a painful process. But allow me to say THANK YOU for the love, for the warmth and for bringing us to where we are right now. You may not be expressive in your love but you are who you are and I tell you I felt your love, we felt your love in the way you know how to express it. I just so hate cancer and Alzheimer’s because it robbed us so many years that we can have had enjoyed more of lives together. But on the hindsight, your journey had humbled us. It was a rich-learning journey of love and care. Thank you so much Pa for inculcating in me the value of hard work and visioning. You are a very religious and disciplinarian person. In retrospect, I may not have understood why we have to wake up at 3 am and pray the rosary, why I have to be at home by 6 pm, why I have to help you tend to your cockfighting rosters, pigs and goats – but all of these have thought me valuable lessons. Those are lessons of FAITH and HARD WORK. And I thank you for teaching me to dream early on in life and how to fight for these dreams. I know Pa, God is aware how I tried to race hard to realize my dreams so you too can enjoy it and be proud of my success, of what I have become and I just didn’t reach them yet and I am so sorry Pa. But I am at this point of my career Pa where I can bring you to a fancy restaurant or to a comfy hotel or to places I have travelled but your physical and mental battle with Alzheimer claimed it. I know you love mama so much and I know you are not violent but Alzheimer claimed it too! Rest assured Pa, we will take care of Mama. I will take care of Mama because my love for you is as profound as my love for Mama. This is so painful Pa but I will let you go because this is part of the grander plan of our Creator. In his time, I will join you too. PADAYON PA. SORRY AND THANK YOU SO MUCH. Your graveyard will be my next MTS, my next hang out place. And to all of you who joined us in this difficult episode of our lives, who showed support and sympathy, May God Bless You All. Thank you very much!

On Deck: Palawan!

One in the bucket lists that needs to be ticked off soon! Palawan is a must-visit-explore spot! Any buddy who want to hop in? C'mmon!

Climate Change: Climate Resource Center - Interactive: Climate time machine

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Hello Bloggy

Hi Bloggy! How are yeah? I miss you so much! I know, I know, for the nth time I have promised to keep you abreast of "my latest" career, romance, etc...but yes, I feel the urge now and deeply motivated to write and write and write... Hmmmn, what do you think would be a good "coming-back" subject? Le'mme think! For now, I say, I see you lateh! Hugs, JAB

Graceful Exit

Hi Bloggy! I know, I know how busy I was (but should not be a reason for leaving you behind) and completely lost touch of you but I know you're always there, you're always and will always be a part of my journey. A witness to the ups and downs, to the emotional roller coaster ride I went through. But yes, here I am now but sad that the updates I have may not be as happy and as joyful as I want them to be. But this is life, everything that comes along painful or not should be a celebration of life. I can vividly remembered last year when I went to the Shrine and lit 39 candles and prayed for a blossoming of romance and it was an answered prayer. I was jubilant. I was me. I was happy. I was high. I was grateful for allowing me to feel love and be loved again. It was an amazing discovery of feelings, exploration of limits, of boundaries, of space,of myself. And for the first time, I claimed to be "officially us" but no commitment (maybe referred to as open relationship?) just enjoy the company of each other and then work part us far from each other, and then the constant communication drifted slowly from calls to few text. Lately, I realized that something is not right. I realized I am not sure now whether I like an open relationship or not. I can be clingy and can be possessive which can turn off a partner. But what can you do when you discover that your partner is happier in the arms of somebody else where true love is being shared with the fruit of their love? I feel guilty and even without discussion, I feel, I strongly feel now that I need to exit gracefully, or simply just fade away. I am not angry nor miserable,in fact I am happy to see my love happy. You see? destiny is destiny and we can never defy it no matter what rules we impose or what label we use. So I say, till the next script and for now...you will just be a friend in my script and I am really happy for the affection you have showed. We may not have spoken yet but I guess this is it. See you when I see you.

The End of the Beginning of the End

The End of the Beginning of the End

Welcome Paddy!

Hi Paddy, welcome to team survivor! Let's do this, let's witness unfolding of living the dream of my life!