11 November 2014
Hi Pa,
This is so difficult! I know I have tried to prepare myself for this scenario but this is just a painful process.
But allow me to say THANK YOU for the love, for the warmth and for bringing us to where we are right now.
You may not be expressive in your love but you are who you are and I tell you I felt your love, we felt your love in the way you know how to express it. I just so hate cancer and Alzheimer’s because it robbed us so many years that we can have had enjoyed more of lives together. But on the hindsight, your journey had humbled us. It was a rich-learning journey of love and care.
Thank you so much Pa for inculcating in me the value of hard work and visioning. You are a very religious and disciplinarian person. In retrospect, I may not have understood why we have to wake up at 3 am and pray the rosary, why I have to be at home by 6 pm, why I have to help you tend to your cockfighting rosters, pigs and goats – but all of these have thought me valuable lessons. Those are lessons of FAITH and HARD WORK. And I thank you for teaching me to dream early on in life and how to fight for these dreams.
I know Pa, God is aware how I tried to race hard to realize my dreams so you too can enjoy it and be proud of my success, of what I have become and I just didn’t reach them yet and I am so sorry Pa. But I am at this point of my career Pa where I can bring you to a fancy restaurant or to a comfy hotel or to places I have travelled but your physical and mental battle with Alzheimer claimed it. I know you love mama so much and I know you are not violent but Alzheimer claimed it too! Rest assured Pa, we will take care of Mama. I will take care of Mama because my love for you is as profound as my love for Mama.
This is so painful Pa but I will let you go because this is part of the grander plan of our Creator. In his time, I will join you too. PADAYON PA. SORRY AND THANK YOU SO MUCH. Your graveyard will be my next MTS, my next hang out place.
And to all of you who joined us in this difficult episode of our lives, who showed support and sympathy, May God Bless You All.
Thank you very much!
